On a Chilly December Morning

Finishing up the latest DW project this week. I love working for/with DW. I seem to need someone to listen and give feedback, make critical suggestions, or voice appreciation.  It’s part of my process. I look back on my relationship with Anton Fier and the years of being “curated” by him. Maybe I enjoy it because I longed to be recognized by my father. (Thoughts like this come up constantly since his death. The unresolved haunts).

This project is an interesting one. Four short films, character studies of four achieving young people (made for a corporation as a recruiting tool), each one requiring music with a different feel/message. DW is something of a corporate outlaw, doing his best to make these films beautiful and poetic. They’re fun to write to/for. Still working on the last, a story of a parent-less 23 year old, successfully raising her 17 year old sister. They’ve yet to get an edit with flow and so it’s difficult to make the music work. But it will come together and getting there is fun. Two new songs that I really love have come out of the project.

I want to put out a new record of these songs and the others written and recorded the last couple of years. They’re all kind of melancholy and thoughtful, sparsely arranged. I project what the reviews would be and it stops me (or slows me down at least). Does the world need another melancholy, slow-paced record by me?  But I will probably put it out anyway. I do what I do. I need to let go of the desire to be great, and the need to be appreciated for my greatness. That’s ego. I do what I do. It may or may not have much value in the world, but I need to keep contributing my part. It shouldn’t matter if I’m misunderstood or disliked. Creativity is to be shared. I’m sure many, many people stop themselves for fear of being judged or rejected. But our work, as creative people, is to produce it and share it and not worry about how it will be received.

Layng contributed a track (very Slang) for one of the films and it came out really great. Was nice to work with him again. He’s living in Nashville now, still very Layng, still dear to me in a way. My family always adored him and he was very sweet when my father was ill.

Went to the movies with someone new last night, but I have no interest in men anymore, or maybe I’m not ready to do it again. It feels so forced, trying to have a good time with a stranger. I’d rather be at home with my Doe and the cats. We saw Up in The Air with George Clooney. It was a good film but, as is the case with all mainstream movies, punished its protagonist in the end for his life of minimal attachment.  God forbid a fictional character actually gets away with living a life outside of convention.

Ok, time to get moving.

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7 Responses to On a Chilly December Morning

  1. BobK says:

    >Does the world need another melancholy, slow-paced record by me?

    Yes. Yes it does. If that’s the sort of music that feels right to you then that’s what you should record, Lori. I happen to love bittersweet tunes. Maybe it’s because I’m prone to bouts of Slavic melancholy. ;)

  2. Michael Dorfman says:

    > Does the world need another melancholy, slow-paced record by me?

    Count me in! I’ll buy as many melancholy, slow-paced records as you can release.

  3. Em says:

    You definitely need to let us hear that music.
    Why? Because you sing about an important corner of the human condition that lots of people spend a lot of energy trying to block out. This is the strength of your music, and also why it may never be extremely popular.
    On the other hand, I still firmly believe that remaining true to what you do will in the long run be supported by the universe, or by God, or whatever. The only challenge is having the strength to keep going and seeing this arc through to its conclusion.
    I’m convinced that this conclusion will be a good one, so keep going and release that music!

  4. PE says:

    I agree with the others. I find that each of your songs creates its own world and that your new songs are unlike the songs you have written before. They long to be part of a collection, selected and sequenced.

    I’m very careful who I share your music with, but everyone whom I’ve shared your music loves it as much as I do. I think when you are true to yourself, true to the moments you are capturing as you are, that you don’t repeat yourself even when you think you might. So it’s OK to worry, but please release the music anyway.

  5. jhorne10 says:


    Many years ago you played a concert in Atlanta (on or near Halloween). Near the end of your show, you asked “How many slow sad songs can one city stand?”. Someone in the audience yelled “how many you got?” Keep writing, we’re still listening.

    By the way, I taught a songwriting workshop to some high school students last year. It was loosely based on what you did with us in 2002. Your work continues to impact people in ways you don’t know.



  6. PE says:

    And, to me, it’s not that you write melancholy and thoughtful for the melancholy and thoughtful.. it’s that you write and record great songs. No one writes like you. You have a prose that is your own.

  7. lcdalbeto says:

    Hi Lori! How R U doing?
    It’s a little late, but I want to wish a really nice xtimas.
    It’s good to know that you’re R going well. Be strong! My feelings R with U.

    Have a really great new year.

    Oh, I just want to know. Have seen a video of Clean Get-away few years ago. Directed by John Huba. I cant’ find it anymore. Could you disponibilized it for us? It’s such a great song, and I loved the video.



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